I found myself thinking about you more recently. It has certainly been a minute (read: 2 years) and the urge to up and leave has been showing it’s head again. When I find myself wishing to follow the change of the seasons, I’ve found a few methods of coping with my inability to just bail. Spring and fall are always the hardest for me. The transition from winter to summer and back again makes me want to change as well. I want to see new places, meet new people and try new things. Those experiences and stories help make me who I am as a person and I tend to feel stuck without them.
I’m not going to pretend that I can’t do those things in my hometown as well, but it just doesn’t have the same impact. These last 2 years I have changed a lot and done a lot of things. The situation with my significant other has changed dramatically. Not too long after my last post here we split. I have a new SO and we’ll see where that takes us. I no longer work in hotels, instead opting to become tech support. I miss my guests from the hotel daily but it was time to move on. My last week at the hotel I got my second ever hug from a guest when she learned I wouldn’t be there when she returned. I also work part time for a winery that is owned by my SO’s parents. They’re wonderful people that are so fun to learn about wine from.
Aside from learning about wine, I have also returned to working on different languages. I am brushing up on my rusty French skills as well as learning Norwegian and Japanese. While this doesn’t really sate my desire to travel, it does help make me more prepared for when I am able to take that leap again. While learning Norwegian makes sense because I do have extended family in the country, the urge to learn Japanese sort of snuck up on me one day. I had never really had an interest in any Asian countries, as my past and hopefully future adventures lie in Europe but now I find myself adding Japan and a few others to my ever growing list of places I want to find myself.
In order to deal with this unquenchable desire to move I’ve jumped into a new job, made new friends, found new hobbies, and started learning new languages. The shake up has helped make me feel like I haven’t become quite so stagnant in my life. While it doesn’t squash the urge to leave by any means, it does help me get through my daily life until I am in a place to be able to travel again. Sometimes it’s just a little harder to remember why I’m still here and because of that, I’m turning back to you. It looks like I’m piling coping method on top of coping method and maybe I am, but writing to you is something I can rely on. I can always come back to you.
You help. Seeing other stories and reliving my own help to perk me up when I’m feeling a bit down about being tied into that Monday through Friday 8 to 5 job and not being more than 45 minutes away from my house at any given time. So I want to thank you for being here. You do, truly, help. Thank you.
Until we meet again,